my god i just, i just hate when people are like "shut up you're so negative its annoying" like, sorry i ended up with a horrible childhood/life and i want to speak up about my current mental health issues? ill try not to do any of that again. genuinely fuck you if you have a mindset like that, you're an ignorant shit who's too boastful about your great life and don't want it to be "messed up" by our "negative energy". not all of us even have people or servers to vent to, im at a state where i genuinely cant even control my venting or episodes because for one i have nowhere else to cast them so i just let it go wherever i end up.
and fyi, you telling someone to shut up/that theyre annoying is also spreading negative energy, smartass. i honestly wish some shit would happen to them just so they can know what it feels like to be in a deep endless depressive state and have fucking nobody to help you